After many years
without a steady job my wife and I hit the bottom, welfare. We had no money
or possessions and got around in $100 car with that was a bucket of rust. My
wife finally wised up and left me but the con in me handled that easily with
a... "ok I'll quit drinking and no more drugs." Well I actually did quit for a
year and started to work in our rented apartment refinishing furniture. We
actually started to make enough money so they took away our welfare but gave
us food stamps and 6 months later we were on our own. Knowing I quit for a
year was proof I didn't have a problem (patience) I conned my way back to
just a few drinks on Saturdays, of course it only took only a couple of
months before it was the same old thing. To shorten this story we repeated the
same scenario over again and I quit for a couple of years this time before I
started all over again.
My wife is a
Christian and decided that she would try one more time. This time she told
the Lord He will have to make something happen because this is her final
try... intervention was her course of action. She packed her bags and had
them in the car as she drove into the hospital for the intervention. She was
positive I would reject any help and knew she had to start her life over. It
started with a phone call to our store. The hospital called and told me that
our daughter had a slight injury. I would have to pick her up at the
hospital. I walked in and they said you can get her in room A, as I
approached the door I was greeted in the hallway and a doctor said my
daughter is ok but some people want to talk to me. When I walked in I knew
it was trouble, the table looked a city block long and their was my lawyer,
partner, sister, brother in law, wife and 2 kids. I was real scared and
thought about running out but the con in me said you can get out of this Ray
just play along. My sister started, my wife, then my daughter got to me a
little, at that point my 4 year old son yelled out , when do I get my turn;
he spoke," when are you going to quit doing drugs and be my dad!" I still
have a hard time believing those words came out of a 4 year old. Well that was
to much for me to take and I broke down and cried like a little baby. It was
a very sad moment in my life and I shocked everyone by agreeing to go into
rehab. It didn't really sink in till 3 days later in the middle of the
night. I began to review my life and came to realize the things I have done
and the way I lived my life was not normal. BINGO... the light finally went on,
I am a drug addict and a drunk! For the first time in my life I knew
something was wrong . I wasn't normal, how could I be living and doing the
crazy things that consumed my life.
I thought I was real cool...
but was really a BIG fool.